Some day's Suck!

Some day's I want to punch people. 

Some times I just want to sit people down and shake them and 

say "Look what your actions have done!!"

Most days I am so grateful for the trials in my life that have helped me raise my children.

Most days I have to take a deep breath and pray that I am doing the right things with my kids.

Sometimes I have to cry because I feel helpless.

Everyday I pray.

I pray.

and I pray.

Everyday I pray that my kids won't be scarred by the things that have happened to them in their lives.

Everyday I give my children Love.

All the Love I have.

This leaves no room for anyone else to come into my life.

I am okay with that.

Most days.

I ADORE my beautiful children. 

Someday's I just need a reminder that it will all pass and I will stop hurting from all the pain 

that was caused by others. 

Someday...

School!!

Aah.... School days are back!

I am so excited to have the kids in school again

I am also kinda bummed and lonely.. 

Zach started KINDERGARTEN!!

I know... I can't believe it either!

He was nervous the first day and there was a lot of bus drama

but he LOVES it! I am so happy about his teacher and aide's.

They love him and, once again, has them wrapped around his fingers!

 Miss Emily is in 1st grade! She LOVES it. 

She is most excited about staying all day AND eating lunch there. 

She thinks that it's so awesome being able to pick what she wants to eat, because I can't tell her no!

I love her and am SO proud of her. She is reading now at a 3rd grade level. It's nice having her read to me. 

Hello!!

It looks like i'm back!! I am so excited to have my "outlet" back. I have missed sharing the amazing things that have we have been blessed with. The good AND the bad. 
Okay...
Today I am going to just write 5 things I am thankful for. I need to do this today to remind myself that things in life are simple. Sometimes the world makes things so complex and if the world would just stop, take a step back and take a deep breath I think a lot of the problems we have would a more peaceful place to live. 

1. The Gospel. There is so much I want to say with this. I have been stuck for the last 10 min trying to word my thoughts and feelings the best way... It all seems to be jumbled when i try to type it.
I have had my share of doubt and made mistakes in my life. Looking back I have noticed that the times in my life that I am the happiest are when I have faith in the gospel, my Heavenly Father, and in Jesus Christ. The Gospel has been the ONLY constant thing in my life. People and friends come and go.. trials come and go. The Lord understands the things going on. I can say he has held me and my family in the palm of his hand many many times. He does love us and wants to help if we ask. 


2. My Family. I love that we all have our own unique personalities. We have been through a lot together. My Mom has been such a great example to my over the years. She is amazing and SOO FUNNY!!! My Brothers and Sisters are people who are kind, Loving, Excepting, funny and brilliant. Things are so much fun when we are all together!


3.Emily and Zachary. When I watch them I get this sense of peace. When I think about them and the things the 3 of us have endured I know without a shadow of doubt that Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ are real and love and protect us. I have watched the Heavens open as angels have surrounded my Son. I have watched the Lords arms wrap around us as we have struggled with life, death, Pain, sorrow, and joy. They are MY miracles. I love them so much.  



4.My Home. I am so happy with where we live. It is small and gets cluttered really fast, but it is exactly where i am suppose to be.


5. Forgiveness. 




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